The bell rang signaling fifth period was over. As everyone ran to get to class on time, I ran to my car to make sure I wasn't late on my first day at my internship. I ran home and changed into my new, pink scrubs then went straight to the Tassajara Veterinary Clinic.
I got there early, but decided to go in anyway. I was told to go on ahead into the back and wait for Dr. Dowd to get out of the appointment she was currently in. I didn't mind waiting because I got to explore the clinic a little. I read all of the notes that were posted about what types of medicines were scarce and articles on recent veterinary medicince discoveries and cases. I also checked out all of the dogs and cats that were in holding, waiting to go home. After 10 minutes Dr. Dowd came out and we were on the move.
We went straight to her next appointment which, to my excitment, was with a shih tzu puppy. It was a quick check up that was soon over and then we went on the the next appointment and then the next appointment and so on. Each appointment was with a brand new breed and a brand new problem.
About an hour into my shift I experienced the one thing that has stopped me from locking down on the idea of becoming a vet. Euthanization.
I have never seen an animal get put to sleep, neither did I ever really want to.. Though I knew I would have to witness it someday if I wanted to become a vet, I didn't think it would be on the first of my internship. Nonetheless, it was something I had to experience and the other vet techs were very nice and explained the process to me the whole time while reminding me that the animal doesn't feel a thing and it was the last thing they could do to take away the pain.
I left that day feeling a mixture of things. But I survived.
I drove home with a little more faith in the idea of me becoming a veterinarian and I can't wait to experience even more.
It's very strong of you to be able to go through such a difficult situation and still believe that this is what you want to do!
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